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Category: My Diary

The Diary – August 2019

The Diary – August 2019

The Story So Far…   As you may be aware I have decided to take back my life from the greyed out, lonely place I have existed in for the last forty-plus years. The decisions taken… Mindsight meditation The inner peace which I so crave […]

The First Day

The First Day

The day has come for meandering change One step away from the mental health daze A fog that conspired to hurt and detract Away from the path laid bare in its act. The feeling of nothing, anhedonia its name, A long cast shadow with no […]

14th May – 9th June 2019 – Anhedonia

14th May – 9th June 2019 – Anhedonia

It has taken so long for me to post about the journey so far, and I want to apologise. The lack of content production has been awful but here is the thing, I didn’t want to write shite when not in the best place to […]

13th May – 19th May 2019

13th May – 19th May 2019

Monday I worked from home today as I needed to speak to the doctor. I hadn’t been myself all of last week and the thought of continuing like this is not right. What is it that I am searching for? The doctor suggested more blood […]

6th May – 12th May 2019

6th May – 12th May 2019

This week has been much of a non-event than before. The plans I had made to myself, had all but vanished. The way life gets in the way! Monday Lost I must seem to give myself no chance when I try to plan my day. […]

29th April – 5th May 2019

29th April – 5th May 2019

Monday Well, it was a good start to the week as I managed to be up at 6.30am, completed the Wim Hof Method (WHM) and Transcendental Meditation (TM). Although not a major thing currently, my weight seems to have gotten heavier as I have been […]

22nd April – 28th April

22nd April – 28th April

Introduction There has not been a lot of activity in this section recently and with good reason. Thinking about the next stage of my life, I thought it best to write a diary to reflect what is happening during this period. So, the analogy is, […]

05 April 2019

05 April 2019

A few things have happened since the last diary entry. The new direction my life is taking is underway slowly. As from the 1st of April, I wanted to start to change the way I approach it. Closing in on my 49th birthday in July, […]

25th March 2019

25th March 2019

Looking back over the last couple of weeks has been a good learning curve as to where I was and where I would like to be. The mind I was struggling with has subsided after the recent events of wanting to end it all and […]

11th March 2019 – Mental Health Monday

11th March 2019 – Mental Health Monday

I had the pleasure of speaking to Mick Coyle on Radio City Talk as part of their Mental Health Monday………      

2nd March 2019

2nd March 2019

The feelings of today are good. Enthused by the recent weather we have had and the good feeling that this can bring. However, the feelings of rage that have engulfed me have been overtaking my thought process. The fact that I have had to work […]

21st February 2019

21st February 2019

Well, it’s been a struggle. I mean, what the hell!? As you may know, I have been off from work due to depression and anxiety and allowed myself the freedom to let my mind have a day off. I was thinking about normal issues like […]

4th February 2019

4th February 2019

I feel as if today is one of those days that would just disappear. Although I had a good weekend where I wasn’t thinking about anything in particular. Bring on today, and the feelings of low self-esteem, worry, sadness are just a few of the […]

30th January 2019

30th January 2019

I know I haven’t written for a couple of days but its all been a bit time-consuming. Not the writing to you guys, but other things which have got in the way.   Life The pitfalls and the upheavals alongside the downward spiral a lot […]

25th January 2019

25th January 2019

Today has been a day of mixed emotions, to say the least. I met up with work buddies for the first time since October 2018 and it felt nice to be in their company again. To think that I have these people in a work […]

24th January 2019

24th January 2019

How do you describe numbness? Imagine yourself on a canal barge travelling through a long, circular tunnel, with the end seemingly a mile away. The light at the end of the tunnel continues to move further away as you get closer. The hum-drum sound of […]

21st January 2019

21st January 2019

The day wasn’t great today but the visit to the doctor was somewhat eventful. It always nice to see a friendly doctor and my one is a delight. But one thing is worrying her and that is my distinct lack of enthusiasm for anything exciting. […]

19th January 2019

19th January 2019

The thought of going back to work both worries, and excites me. The feeling of going back onto the cauldron of the work environment and the pressures that come with it is unnerving.   Following a wellbeing meeting in work the other day, I shared […]

17th January 2019

17th January 2019

A few days ago at Hope Street, I was introduced to a lovely lady by the name of Zarra. She spoke glowingly of the benefits of remaining positive and how it has changed her life.    The Law of Attraction   The process she uses […]

12th January 2019

12th January 2019

After the events of the last few months and a lot of years previously, the search to find something that could help me turn my life around continued… Transcendental Meditation On Thursday last, I went to a meeting to discuss the option of Transcendental Meditation […]