Low Level Mood Flying on Autopilot

Low Level Mood Flying on Autopilot

How do you turn your mood around? People tell you that it is a choice whether you are happy or not, and others say you’re just a miserable bastard but you feel the weight of one hundred gravity blankets resting on every inch of your being. Feeling as though I am upsetting everyone I am associated with is such a burden that must be relinquished.




What is your mood? I suppose it can be a temporary state of mind that alters every minute of everyday. How many times have you been in a good mood for it to be altered by someone else? And vice-versa. If you think about it, I bet it would be quite a lot. The fact that we have the analogy that people can be radiators and drains speaks volumes. For me, I must have been a drain for the majority of the time I have been alive but I’m sure this was circumstantial as opposed to a choice.


But, if the mood can be temporary, how can it weigh so heavily on peoples’ minds that it becomes a daily struggle for people, or for the person to hate themselves so much they just want it all to go away? The mood is such a difficult emotion as sometimes if the person you are with is happy and jolly all the time, that could have a negative effect on you, as would someone who is always dreary and down. The thought of being in the same room with someone like that is exhausting.



Turning it around


This is the conundrum then, how do we turn it around? Maybe it can come easy to people other than myself as I am probably quite a dull person at the moment – que the violins for the introduction of the Fluoxetine segment! I agree, it’s boring but also relevant as this in my opinion, has drained me of all sense of happiness and involvement in life. The worrying part is that I know that I am alienating my friends at times and for me to recover any meaningful way of life, why dispose of the humans that will bring the best out of you in the long run?


I am currently reading a book by Craig Cooper and I am finding it a very insightful in finding a cure to my woes. The book Your New Prime has a variety of sections that can help men of a certain age overcome their issues when hit the age of forty and beyond. More importantly, it gives you an insight into what could be holding you back.


For me, the testosterone problem that I have is a massive issue. It is low. Very low and has all but taken over the joy that life can bring.



The Value of Testosterone


Knowing what testosterone was growing up was the last thing on mind as it got in the way of woman, growing a pair, going to the gym, parading around as if I owned the place and there you have it – all there in a sentence. Something so powerful we have as men, is taken for granted until it starts to disappear as you go past the age of thirty, and as the book suggests, ‘the average man’s testosterone levels are twenty-five percent lower than is was in the 1980’s’


Hypogonadism is a real problem. My physician sent me to a consultant and he presented me with the diagnosis. I did not know what it was but on further investigation, in layman’s terms, it means that my testes are not producing enough testosterone. The impact that this has on a man is quiet pronounced. the symptoms can include the following:


  • low sex drive
  • infertility
  • erectile dysfunction
  • fatigue and low energy
  • difficulty concentrating
  • depression
  • irritability
  • low sense of well-being
  • weight gain
  • loss of muscle mass and strength
  • slowed rate of facial hair growth
  • hot flushes and sweats
  • increased likelihood of obesity, diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol


This is quite a list and when you compare it to the feelings that men portray, you may understand why. It’s a big thing. So, how can you turn this around?


For me, the Testosterone Replacement Therapy is a definite no. If you click on the link you may be surprised of the amount of negativity the treatment draws in. For me, it sent me into rage, anger, erratic behaviour, sorrow, lethargy, aggression to name but a few. And to be honest, it has affected me in ways that have partly led me to the writing of this blog.


An interesting take on medication overall can be found on a talk delivered by David Healy when talking at Aberystwyth University. Have a look and make your own mind up.


The challenge


The removal of medication from my being is important to me and although I am suffering with some withdrawal symptoms from Fluoxetine, I am steadfast in my decision to put goodness back into my body from now until the end!



There are so many things I could talk about in relation to the ‘fixing’ of the broken person I have become. But I don’t want to do that as I want to become a little more positive in this transitional year that I have embarked upon. Like I have said previously, I am starting from the inside out and with this I mean an increase in the following:


  • Vitamin supplements
  • Vegetables
  • Water
  • Ice cold showers
  • High intensity exercise
  • Meditation
  • Yoga
  • Sleep
  • Intermittent fasting


I am still unsure of how I want to formulate this as it will form part of a course I may produce going forward but it will form part of the initial period but nevertheless, it is a process that I am fortunate to be able to work with and towards as there are so many others less fortunate than I.


Let me know what you think?





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